Smoking

Smoking is something I was always fascinated about from school days and would always wonder how it feels when one smokes and would get more excited to know about it whenever I would see people smoking in different styles. And then came the day when I was finally in engineering college which was very far off from the main city and no fear of being watched by parents or for that matter anyone who knows you and your parents.

This was during first year when we had passed the phase from being and bullied by seniors and now, we were confident enough of choosing what is right or wrong for us. I had very good friends who were mostly on the ‘non padhaku’ sort and went to a nearby dhaba a few 100mts from college and everybody was in their full spirit and enjoying to the core. Everybody smoking and drinking and there boom gets me back to my wildest fantasy to smoke and one of my friend lends me a cigarette after many requests to just try it out once.

I didn’t know how to smoke but even then took the first drag and started coughing loud and my eyes turned red and making me pukish. Apart from all of this, I go for another drag and same thing happens. All of them are looking at me and start scolding the guy who offered me the cigarette but me, the stubborn queen was bent on learning it and I had to request all of them to teach me the right way to smoke then one by one every one teaches me the different ways of hodling it and taking a drag. Initially slowly, feel the smoke in my mouth and then blow it out slowly and I being a good student of theirs followed the orders and did it and that was one moment where I realized and could justify my crave to smoke. This was the day which I vaguely remember was somewhere a day before my first birthday in Engineering college because this is the birthday gift I had asked for to teach me how to smoke and I would not want anything else.

This is the day when I became a true collegiate as my friend say because you would try anything you like just to get a feel and hang of freedom. But I never misused the freedom given by my parents for wrong causes and get away with it. What I believe in is when there is a crave in you to try out something new go for it rather than just have the crave for it and do nothing to satisfy it which results in a kind of mental depression in some way or the other. So from this day onwards I picked up smoking and would smoke only if I felt like and not because anyone else asked me to or so. It was solely my choice. I was a smoker until the last year where I was caught up in making projects for eighth semester and had to run to HAL for the project. The last day when I smoked during Engg was the last exam of sixth semester and then somehow quit after that.

After all of this I passed Engg with a distinction, started working for a company called Standard chartered Finance Limited as a sales executive and then got married in the month of may 2005 which kind of ended the relationship between me and smoking until I joined an eLearning company called Edutech after three years of marriage is when I met my "true friend" again – the cigarette. I started smoking in March 2008 and have been smoking then on. There are many times when brilliant ideas click your head when you are grabbing a smoke. Smoking acts as a very good stress buster for me and relieves me from unwanted tension and allows me to focus on things I should really concentrate on.

So, my message is KEEP SMOKING and feel the fun and excitement with each drag.