Eating a lot and then Throwing up :(

The other day I was trying to forcefully vomit out the food I had eaten because I felt guilty that I had eaten a lot… for the first time. But then again I tried the same thing yesterday, but actually felt guilty that I was troubling my body so much, and it did give up on me. I could not sleep whole night thinking about people who have this disorder Bulimia Nervosa and Anorexia Nervosa. The first time I read about it I felt that it was not such a big “Disorder” as it was portrayed. I thought that “oh! That is cool… so you can eat anything you want and then all you need to do this puke it out… Isn’t it great ?!?”

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But when I did it yesterday, I felt really bad… bad emotionally, physically and mentally. I felt why am I doing this to myself and my body? It is just so sadL . The body that takes care of you… if you take care of it little… this is all I have to give it back? I was feeling so low and depressed that I could not sleep all night and then decide that I will blog about it… Not because I wanted to take off the guilt that I felt… but to tell somebody who is in the same state as mine that this is not right. It is not right for you because it ruins your health not only physical but also mental health.

There are many articles about it and we might have read about it… but would have not taken it so seriously because it is just another article where somebody has some disorder and it actually becomes interesting because it is one of the ways you can lose weight the easy way after eating a lot or not eating at all. How sad can this be? Our body needs some nutrition every day to allow us to do the daily chores but then we don’t even want to give it that or take that all off because we think we might have over done it? What is wrong with us and why?

These disorders are also hereditary, can be caused because of biological and environmental factors… but it needs to be cured. Need to be cured because they are so dangerous as tumors or cancer. Tumors or cancer just eat us physically and by the end of it we know what is going to happen… but these are far worse because these eat us physically, mentally and emotionally. Not only do they affect us but people around us because if we are not happy with ourselves… how can we promise or at least take the effort to keep our loved ones happy? How? How?

So this is to all the people who feel being thin is cool and if we feel that, then there are right/correct ways to do that. This is not a right… forget this is NOT even a way to be thin. Please do consider this… because I realized what I was doing is bad for me and have started to go in the correct path and want others to try that also.