Colleague or Friend?

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Sometimes I wonder what it means to be totally professional. What does it mean by saying be “colleagues first” and then “friends later”? Why does it have to be so? Because earlier I did not see any harm making friends before accepting people as colleagues. Technically, they are my colleagues as soon as they join the company I am working in but...

My problem is if I see some match... in the thoughts, ideas, way of living and simplicity I fall in the friendship ‘pit’ and then it starts hurting. Why does it start hurting when the people that are “supposedly” colleagues are reacting like colleagues nothing less...nothing more? I guess...The problem is with me...problem is that I want to see and be greeted by a friend when I come to work every day than to meet a colleague who is “Just there” because he/she is supposed to. But it is hard to digest that the people around you are not your friends but are colleagues first. They are here for the same reason in common to ‘earn money’ like me.

Sometimes I get scared thinking that would they even bother if I never came back to office or at least a day (if no work is getting affected at office) and also what scares me is thinking that is this kind of attitude healthy? Is it or is it not? Why is my mind thinking on it so much I have NO idea (or maybe I have hints of why it is thinking this way)?

Why does our heart make us think when it is not it’s job and why does our mind make us feel bad when it is not the part of its job? Amazed at what your heart and mind can do to you? Even I am and that is why this post is ...hoping to get some answers from some people who would bother read it and try to understand and THEN might think of helping me.

Luv Sadhana